it was a total dread as i am experiencing cramp. A tormenting pain in my stomach and that i had to leave my whole day to rest at home. oh god! pretty moody as i am having my pms you see. i can be happy at one moment and at the next moment feeling terrible and upset. what next happened that cause me to be feeling terrible is dar. i ascertain you, he was not aware that i am mad at him as guys are the most insensitive creatures of the world. he was telling me he will be busy for the whole of the week and will not be available to meet me. well, i dont mind you not meeting me but cant you just let me know in advance so that i can plan my schedule for the week. you see, i was thinking holiday is coming to an end so maybe he will want to spend more time with me as i will not be that free when school reopens, hence, i put him into my first priority and leave my days free for him. and yes, fuck! he rather spend it elsewhere. this sets me thinking that i had been sparing a thought for him, spending ultimate time with him, being there by his side when he needs me but does he appreciate it? like i reject to club sometimes knowing he doesnt really like it. have he spare a thought for me? how do i feel? is his life all about himself and how he look into one perspective not considering a thought for me? i understand this might be occasionally, but i felt in general guys are insensitive and selfish, they tend to care about themselves more than their girl. i know dar is quite loving and he rarely does that, but somehow, this outrages me and i am still mad at it.. yes i demand more and more every moment. reason is i love you and i wanna to enhance a better r.s in us.

spending my day at home.. yawns!!