i cant help feeling this way, i waited for your call since 9pm and u have not been calling me? you rarely go ur aunt place till that late.. yes i am worried and what can i do? walk around in my house.diverting my attention to watch tv so as not to think too much about it. i just cant do it, despite watching the korean drama i have always love, i am still thinking about him. my heart feeling extremely insecure about how mwach he love me deep in his heart? he claimed he love me lotsa in the afternoon if that is so, why is he like this lately? i am extremely upset over it, pessimistic about everything.

tell me is it fair that i demand more from him? this is the basic expectation that a girl will want from a guy. sigh! that is what a girl needs and what makes her happy alright? yes! he treated me really well and imma appreciative of it but well, what is causing the change in him? sigh! it seems to be a small problem on the surface, but deep inside as i had no idea how is he feeling, i am certain there is something wrong about it, perhaps we are falling apart.. it is not that i am thinking negatively, it is his actions that led me to think in such a way. well, i am extremely devastated for the whole day. sigh! what should i do people? after i had told him how do i really feel deep in my heart, he is still the same? and he even complains that i demand too much from him?

i am so helpless here. i had no idea what to do next as on one hand i want him back badly,on the other hand i got to tell him about this so as to enhance our bonding for our r.s. am i just going to tolerate and treat it as if nothing happens and it is cause that i think 2 mwach? i noe deep dwn i am not.



*crestfallen*
holding back my tears.
my heart hurts.. i cant breathe, i cant sleep.
i am still waiting for your phone call.

i need him.
i love him truly ever
do not doubt about my feelings for u, baby.
but i will let u go if it is meant to me.

you are my everything
so tell me what should i do? sigh!